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Of Blogging Boredom

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I’ve grown weary of writing this blog. Going MIA and not writing for a while might be the classier thing to do but, I thought, maybe, writing down how I feel will help me work it out. After all, this blog is about making connections, communicating through thoughts and ideas. In my first post when I re-started this blog ten months ago, I wrote :

“So, why do I want to come on course again after being off it? I am still as baffled, still as clueless about how to connect, still a head of ancient, delete-able ideas, still badly in need of an upgrade to technology for commoners in 2014. But I just thought, what the heck, let’s write. What’s the worst that can happen. I’ll get a pain up my spine. No one will read it. No one will care to connect in our “internetly” way through comments. And maybe that is ok. Maybe this time I’m gonna let that be ok. Maybe I could dare to take some space in the blogosphere… and no one will mind or not mind. That is, hopefully they will mind. That’s the plan anyway.

There, onwards, on course. Of writing. Of opinions. Of connection.”

First of all, I think that post was way better than what I’ve been writing for a while. Sometimes, I am happy with what I’ve written. However, I’ve mostly been unhappy with what I’ve posted in the last few months. I try to keep scheduled days and whether I feel inspired or not, I try to get a post in. When I read that paragraph, I almost sigh at my infinitely nobler ambition for my blog back when I didn’t blog. I didn’t know you could like things, tag, put up pictures that you yourself haven’t made. Blogging is hard if you have any further ambition than to simply write when you want to, whatever you want to, with no regard for, well, anything else. Also, you don’t get read much if that is how you go about it but, wasn’t I only meaning to write for writing’s sake all those months ago?

To be honest, I’ve grown weary in general. I was weary all those months ago too, for different reasons. I was weary for not doing, not making something from the heart, for myself. I was weary for not having reasons to be enthusiastic about something. And so, I started taking revenge for my weariness by making you weary with my enthusiasm. And that is the ying and yang of the internet. I know, I know, some of you are kind enough to think what I write here makes you enthused and not weary but, the general rule of the internet is, close tab the moment it gets boring. Don’t give it a chance, it’s not like a magazine you still have to turn pages for, or a billboard you go by everyday and might eventually read. You are only on the internet to read interesting things, or rather skim through them, as long as they are interesting to you.

And I don’t think I have been writing interesting things. Or, more precisely, I have not been writing interestingly. The subjects I deal with here are all broad enough to elicit interesting opinions by anyone. They aren’t boring, I am. And maybe, I am boring because I am bored. Not that I don’t get ideas anymore or work on them. I have many finished and unfinished essays of an ‘Of’ nature lying around. But, there is something not working in this system and I don’t know how to fix it.

I don’t want to go MIA. You may not understand by the sloppy way in which I conduct this blog but, Of Opinions is important to me. I was thinking of starting another blog, one that would focus solely on books, films and music and be easier to write but, it makes me sad to want to let go of this one. I’ve been writing all my life and I’ve never done anything like this before. Made my rules and written how I feel with no second or third parties telling me what is allowable. No other form of writing offers this sort of opportunity for personal freedom. It is a tremendous personal achievement for me, which I alone and maybe my readers can appreciate. It makes me sad that I cannot relate what it means to me if I mention it at a job interview or at the dinner table. To them it’s just another internet thing. To me, it is a work of love.

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Writer, Blogger, Kate Bush Fanatic

10 thoughts on “Of Blogging Boredom

  1. Obviously, you have to do what makes you happy and what works best for you. However, I see no reason why you have to start a new blog to write about movies, books, etc. Unless you just want to, of course. Maybe try introducing some new topics and see how your readers react? Maybe reduce your posting schedule down to just once a week for a while? Give yourself a break without going totally MIA? I don’t know. Just some ideas. Best of luck with whatever you decide to do. You’ve got this.

    1. Thanks a lot, Kate! These are all great ideas. I don’t totally want to go MIA. And I have enough material to keep the blog running until I get some inspiration. I guess I need to find the time and the will to really work on what I can do differently. Thank you so much for your care and support. It means a lot.

  2. I agree with Kate here, you do have to do what does work best for you – I guess it can be quite demotivating if you feel your audience is relatively small and that maybe your words aren’t interesting enough but I have read several of your posts and I think you write well – I have certainly enjoyed reading them. So, don’t give up girl!! If you need to make changes then make them here – do as Kate has suggested and have a re-jig – add some different subjects if you wish and experiment – see how it goes.

    Most of all don’t panic yourself into doing something out of desperation and good luck!

    1. Thank you so much, Mel! Your concern and encouragement really mean a lot. I won’t lie, I haven’t been getting much readership this year, despite being quite consistent with my posts. Of course, there are many other things to be done to get more readers which I don’t do but I also feel creatively uninspired. Maybe trying something different will help. Thanks again! Good luck to you too!

  3. If I may be so bold…is it possible that one reason why you feel weariness or boredom is not because you are failing to write interestingly, but perhaps it is precisely because you have been working to keep a schedule and write whether or not you feel inspired? I think that would quite naturally lead to feeling tired after a while–not because something is wrong with your blog, but because work is hard. As other commenters have said, it is up to you to decide how to resolve this issue, but one option is to relax the schedule of your blogging for a little while, and only write when you feel like it. The advantage of doing that might be that you can continue to do something that you enjoy (and even love), but it would seem like less of a chore for the time being. Yes, disciplined scheduling is a way of building a readership, but there’s no rule that says that you must hold to a rigorous schedule all the time, without breaks or rest time or what have you, especially if your blog is personal. Maybe a period of blogging when you feel like it would make it easier to return to a regular schedule eventually. It could also give you room to consider whether you want to change things up a bit, or not, and if so, how. Finding “the time and the will” to work on changes (if any) might be easier at that point. We all need to take a break or a breather every once in a while; it doesn’t mean that you can’t come back to a hardworking schedule later. Just a thought.

    1. Thank you Various Historian for your very thoughtful comment! I suppose going easy on the schedule might help. I do have quite a lot of material piled up but, it would be better to work on making them better than simply putting them up on a scheduled day. Having a schedule helps because I’d be too much of a perfectionist to put up anything otherwise. That is what I am most afraid of, not improving on what I’ve built so far or giving up altogether. Maybe some time off with help.
      Thank you again for your support and encouragement. It really means a lot.

      1. You’re quite welcome. If you feel that scheduling really does help you, then I can see why you might want to keep it up, so take my suggestion with a grain of salt, of course. It’s really easy for me to make the suggestion to “blog when you feel like it” because that’s what I do. My own perfectionism tends to be disruptive to my attempts at scheduling. But whatever you decide, I’m happy to provide support and encouragement since (as I’ve said before) your blog helps inspire me in working on my new blog.

  4. I love reading (and writing, when I’m inspired) about everyday things and the places they take our thoughts and imaginations. Maybe something on ‘public transport’ or ‘the contents of my bin’?? Just two off the top of my head – but then I haven’t been writing very often lately. It’s a ‘catch-22’ at times, in that writing more often leads to me feeling more inspired to write – but I feel the need of inspiration to start writing in the first place. Hang in there. Hope you find some changes that work well for you and your readers.

  5. Yes, writing does create more writing. Writing here has become a habit so it’s not like I’ve run out of ideas. I just don’t feel I’m conveying them very well. But, I will do my best to hang around because I really don’t want to go. It’s kind and encouraging readers like you that make me want to stay! Thank you so much for your support!

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